So I am starting to ponder if i was meant to walk the road of life alone?.!..I have had to accept who i am ...a lot of men i think are scared by my directness and approach to metal..or the fact that i may seem like a party chick..but i do not party..unless it is a celebration for our lord. I meet guys that say they are Christian , then they slowly push me to the curb because I do not want to partake in sexuallness until I am married or soon to be! What is up with that. Maybe sometimes I should just be happy i am alone. To lie would be wrong ..but Id have more friends if i told men i was gay.
I feel like I would have more friends. I just finished my morning prayer, And am truly grateful that sometimes I can dwell in this essence that i have the only friend and man I need. It is a nice feeling, but it is not easy for me to always be able to hold on to my savior. I am only human and i get lonely and sad like anyone else at times. I have been struggling with this more lately. I could not afford an electric or doublebass drum this month; so i went and got new strings for the acoustic. And sometimes you just got to be thankful and happy for the things you do have.
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